Regardless of what I feel, my body still needs food.
It doesn’t matter if I’m feeling angry, or sad, if I’m stressed, ashamed or guilty, it doesn’t matter if I feel doubtful, hopeless, worthless… my body will still need food today.
My body needs energy, regardless of my mood.
It is relying on me to feed it.
Today was such a perfect day. It was the first day in over a week that I’ve really been able to relax. I passed my skills hurdle today (actually I smashed it), and I got in the car with Mum and cried because I was so happy. I had a psych appointment which was so helpful, I really feel like I have something to work towards now. I spent the rest of the day in bed watching vampire diaries and chilling out.
Then I was thrown back into high school, 8th grade to be exact, where girls were total bitches and cat fights were all the rage.
Now I’m in bed, with my beautiful baby boy Pippin, I’m going to have a real good cry and fall asleep, wake up fresh tomorrow and put the past behind me!
Not going to justify or defend myself to someone who won’t even show their face.
Thank you darling, this was amazing. You are amazing! <3 I’m trying I promise.
How did you get so wise!? Once again posting your wondrous wisdom on my wall as a permanent reminder. Thank you darling xx
Oh good, I was hoping you would contact me.
Firstly I do want to say, that seeing a dietician would be ideal, as they can best come up with a meal plan that suits your body type and weight and your metabolism. Whilst I can give you this meal plan I can’t tell you exactly how your body will react to this (so take this as a rough guide).
Breakfast - 1 cup of cereal with milk or 2x slices of toast each with 1 tsp of margarine + spread. 200g full cream yoghurt. A serve of fruit/juice.
Morning tea - 1-2 orange snacks.
[an orange snack is things like, a muesli bar, a tub of yoghurt, a 2-3 biscuits depending on size, a small chocolate, a slice, some lollies, 1/2 a cup dried fruit or nuts, ice cream. You could either have 2 orange snacks or a purple snack (which was 2 oranges, so basically a bigger snack) for example a cadbury chocolate bar with a handful of dried apricots, a banana with 3 tim tams, um a packet of chips with a juice, a scone, raisin toast with margarine, an english muffin with jam, you get the idea - if you don’t inbox me and I can get my snack list out for more examples]
Lunch - Sandwich/roll/wrap. Made up of, salad (at least 2 different types), an egg/21g of sliced cheese/2-4 slices of deli meet/1 tin of tuna/6 falafel balls/50g of smoked salmon and a spread, e.g. margarine/mayonnaise/dip. And one dairy snack ( a yoghurt, a glass of milk ect).
Afternoon tea - 1-2 orange snacks [like morning tea]
Dinner - Family hot meal containing at least. Red meat (palm size)/Chicken (3/4 hand size)/Fish (hand size)/Legumes (1 cup)/Tofu (150g)/2 whole eggs. Vegetables or salad (at least 1 cup). Rice (1 cup cooked)/Pasta/Noodles (1.5 cups cooked)/2 medium sized potatoes. And Sauces is on the meal plan also.
Supper - 1-2 orange snacks and a serve of fruit.
We also had to have a cup of fluid with every meal, usually we just chose water, that kept us hydrated enough!
I hope this is helpful, it’s really about starting to experiment I suppose once you are at a healthy weight, figuring out your hunger fullness cues, based around a meal plan. Once again I am not a qualified dietician and this meal plan was made for me and my body to maintain a healthy weight, and I suggest if you are unsure or feel uneasy you do see a dietician for some help! Feel free to contact me again if you need.
Sending love x
To be honest I’m actually not sure how she got on the news! I just knew she was going to be on there after doing an interview with channel 7.
Everyone should watch this segment from channel 7 news tonight, featuring my beautiful friend Tatianna talk about eating disorders and their growing prevalence amongst young girls.
I ate my first double carb meal since butterfly today! I was freaking out when I realised Mum had added rice to her chicken and potato green curry. Suddenly one of my friends appeared on the television, apart of a news story for eating disorders. I burst into tears out of pride, and decided that I was going to eat that entire meal, just to stick it up the eating disorder.
Oh and I made overnight oats/bircher muesli today, and I am so excited for breakfast I am considering going to sleep at 7pm.